Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Mood: missing something
Music: Ashokan Farewell (I was just practicing it)

So this entry is just another morning pages, but practicing my fiddle music as I was just now has gotten me missing the lessons I was taking. I sent Alex (my instructor) an e-mail telling her that I'd like to resume my lessons soon. It might be next year before I could do so, but I don't want to let the lessons die. I was enjoying them so much. There're times when I think I tightened my belt on my finances a little too much, and maybe this entry is getting too personal, but I also miss my flying lessons and the ballroom dancing. I might actually get back to the ballroom dancing first. We'll see how things go. I've been resorting to the cheaper entertainment of role-playing games again and I certainly enjoy that too. It's just harder to make a living at it. I suppose I could try my hand at writing modules, but I think I need to get more involved to do that. That IS something I'm trying to do at least: what with attempting to get involved in the RPGA and all. Life seems so very full, yet there's so much I want to do. Angela tells me I'm a regular jack-of-all-trades (joat), but I still have so much that I want to do, so much that I want to try my hand at: hang-gliding, riding a train, visiting other places, writing a novel, getting back to my artwork, becoming a father (okay, I'll be a stepdad soon enough), learning how to ride a horse (Anne, if you ever read this we still have a deal), and I'm sure there's other things I want to try as well that just aren't coming to mind at the moment.
Sometimes these entries come off to me a bit morose, but I have so much that's making me happy right now. I'm gonna get married and that's got me VERY excited. She's so wonderful, and she's such a match. We have moments where we're in each other's heads. How many women out there wish their men could do that. I found the one I can do that with, at least some of the time. :)